True Love

May. 1st, 2017 12:27 pm
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I wept, sitting, staring straight ahead. My heart ached. My mind raced. Then, suddenly, stillness overtook me. And that small, still voice in me said, "You begged me to bring you the love of your life, my dear, and I have. In fact, it's always been there. Can't you see? It's you. It's always been you. Look in the mirror and know that it's you, and never forget that."

Lessons

Apr. 4th, 2017 06:06 pm
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I learned that I am strong and wise within, but also that I don't want to have to be strong all the time.

I learned that I miss *you*, I miss talking to you, I miss sending you silly memes and saying whatever ridiculous thing comes into my head, knowing you will immediately catch on to 98% of it. I miss all of you--- from your smirk, to the way you talk about music and poetry and the things that are important to you. I miss your ability to make light of almost any topic and cheer me up when I am sad and hurting. I miss being the one who will sit with you on the internet until all hours, crying for you because someone else broke your heart.

I love you. And I am in love with you. And I have been for months, even if you will never return the feeling.

And if you won't, then I need to find a way to do what I don't want to do--- be strong again--- and get over you. Because otherwise, I will never heal enough to find someone who *will* love me the way I deserve.

And the sad part is, right now, if you said to me that you loved me, I would do whatever you wanted, just to see you smile. And a loyalty like that, a love like that, deserves so much more than being strong and wise and alone. It deserves full reciprocation.
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"I thought you loved me," he said.

"I do love you, you idiot," she said.

"Then why are you talking to me about other men?" he asked.

"Because you told me you wouldn't have me," she replied. "And I didn't want to keep chasing a pipe dream."

"But you still love me?" he asked.

"Yes, always. And the saddest part of that is, if you would have me, I would drop all these others in a heartbeat and come willingly to your arms. I would never look back. What kind of person does that make me?"

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